Let's begin shall we?
With a question, which is always a good, and perhaps necessary, start to any journey. The question is: can people change? If you find yourself a different person than you thought you were have you actually changed or just manifested a different aspect of yourself that you didn't know existed?
I ask as I find myself embarking on an unexpected journey of the self which I have no doubt will actualize itself into a physical change as well: a change of job, of place, (or more accurately a change of home...or even more accurately inhabiting a home for the first time).
Always in my oh-so-varied career when I've had the luxury of not just worrying about paying the rent the drive has been the creative challenge. But now I find that's not paramount. Now there is, (and believe me I'm as surprised by this as anyone), a drive, a drive, a drive to leave the world a better place than I found it. This is a result of many things: one being the shock of moving from the relatively traditional 'newsprint' world of the USA TODAY Network where at least I had some time to reflect on much of the work before 'publishing' and was allowed some measure of genuine editorial control where I could tell visual stories in a way where the structure of the work matched the content to now inhabiting the world of television news where the broadcast structure mandates, by its very nature, a terrifying shallowness and lack of reflection.
Regardless of the reasons the result is that I feel that I have changed, or what I need has changed. It's not enough to tell stories, or try to find beauty or even just make people laugh. These talents I have, as meagre as they are, must be put to some good use; and clearly I have a talent for the dramatic, if not the grandiose! :) But what is a blog for I ask you if not to muse, in a perhaps slightly pompous and roundabout way, about the changes in one's life and the grappling to find a way forward.
And so I embark on a new chapter. To find meaningful work and, hopefully, make the world just a bit better, (a definition of that, "the better", I think will be the subject of tomorrow's post),